in fact

in fact, life is not only about laziness or negative thinking toward my self or others. Life is about "DO"ing something use full.

okkeh
no need for further delaying or pending or postponing....

action!

today story 2

finally i take a descision
i won't submit my papers today coz i didt fisnish it yet. i postpone my meeting with my student org to be tomorrow.

yeah, again postponing.
let's take some evaluation based on what happen today

1. i sleep too much
2. i am too perfectionist to make my paper that i event didnt start even a clear paragraph yet
3. somehow i think lecturer gives me too many burden but if fact it is not that burndened.
4. i need to wash my clothes asap. i need to go somewhere far.
5. the lack of action

Leaf,..
if you really want to change
then,. change
what the time?
now!

hm,...
i am still here in my room with spinning fan.
my time still running
i am here not changing

ok
another question
how to start?
for your  information, the question of "how to start" usually given from someone that is not really have intention to do so.

phiew,..
do i have negative image to my self?
do i often give negative word to my self?
do i often faking of something?

i wanna break this laziness
sleepiness
negativeness
stressness

auf wieder sehen,..

today story

i wake up late and again sleep after subuh. what kind of world would i face?
today i have to go to campus and have meeting in my student org this afternoon.
still, several task didnt finish yet. i have to catch up these task today. before 2.30 pm i have to be in campus unless lessen possiblilty my task will be acepted by my lecturer. The task are 2 papers assignment. well, my mom has already ask me to change. not to sleep so much, but then i still sleep this much.
more and more time i have waste
thouhg i know my time is coming closer and closer, i still pretending that i'll live on Earth for eternally,.. Astagfirullah,..


based on the facts i see from dially life is that i am not that gratefull to Allah SWT for many things He has given me many things from air to breath, room for shelter, brain to think, voice to speak, water for drink, age for collecting capital for the afterlife.

Somehow, i am too excited meeting awesome clever people yet i forget who create them. Sometime I see certain people too high yet I forget that Allah is The One who creates them!
silly
so, silly,..


yeah,..
changing is not only by metnioning it but also by actualitating it.
based on those all things,...
Leaf, I beg you to purpose (to change, to make a betterment, to be gratefuller to Allah, to count you time,not to see people exaggeratedly,)

sometime

sometime, sickness come and your phisic
sometieme i am so busy that i ignore my health
sometime i just disappoint when ill come and while i need to leave for a particular place
time is running, and i remain the same
woke up and sleep again

recently i am appointed to be a leader of a debate club
then i face my self
i ask my self
can i do this with Leaf in this condition

the second mom said that i need to change
make a change!

i was to scared to stare at this position
the second mom position is so strong. He manages everything. from passport, visa, ticket, decide what time will we gathered in front of jurusan,..
yeah, he'll go to somewhere far to reach his dream.

i need to manage my time. this morning i waste my time again by sleeping. what a shame. yet, no more to mock my self. it will cause nothing but weakening my psychology. yeah i need to wake up. i need to stand up!

remember: "And its enlightenment as to its wrong and its right;-" Al Quran As Syams: 8

heated branches

 not now
to show the world who we are
not now
the sky half black and half white

forcing to make it accepted
scream

fire
heat

accepted
rejected

hope
fail

objected
subjected

the lungs filled with magma
the waterfall fall on my head