Anger

i was angry with someting. somethign.
someti

Statistic

When we make a blog and that is only fo making th statistic higer and higher, it will only bring us a headache.
nothing left
the sense of desert will appear in our heart

it is wrong when the intention is wrong.

come on Leaf
make a right intention

May Allah show me the way,..
aaaamiin

stand up

coming to campus today
Some of my classmate neglecting me
Don't care bout my attending

i dont care

yet, still there a friend
there
offering me a seat
while others busy with themselves

i thankful to Allah,..
alhamdulillah...

those who are neclecting have nothing do with me, my life
those-InsyaAllah- will never bring me down
coz this is my life
and that is their life

let's see

evryrthing begin from sleeping

it begins from sleep
my tasks are abandoned
and
my lecturer mads at me
my coach mads at me
my friend mads at me
and
my health decrease
my sickness increase
and yes, stress oppresses
and
my sin increase
and
my preparation is lacking
my heart beating hard
fat blocks my blood in my vein
and
i promise
try to promise my self
that sleeping is my enemy
that many heinous things begin from it
and
i say
sorry to my friend
sorry to my lecturer
sorry to my coach who got me wrong-i am not like that, i didnt mean to-
sorry to my mom
sorry to my friend
and
sorry
really apologize
to Allah SWT,..
You've given me many things,...
i am no that ta'at yet,..
but i want to,...
astagfirullah...

in fact

in fact, life is not only about laziness or negative thinking toward my self or others. Life is about "DO"ing something use full.

okkeh
no need for further delaying or pending or postponing....

action!

today story 2

finally i take a descision
i won't submit my papers today coz i didt fisnish it yet. i postpone my meeting with my student org to be tomorrow.

yeah, again postponing.
let's take some evaluation based on what happen today

1. i sleep too much
2. i am too perfectionist to make my paper that i event didnt start even a clear paragraph yet
3. somehow i think lecturer gives me too many burden but if fact it is not that burndened.
4. i need to wash my clothes asap. i need to go somewhere far.
5. the lack of action

Leaf,..
if you really want to change
then,. change
what the time?
now!

hm,...
i am still here in my room with spinning fan.
my time still running
i am here not changing

ok
another question
how to start?
for your  information, the question of "how to start" usually given from someone that is not really have intention to do so.

phiew,..
do i have negative image to my self?
do i often give negative word to my self?
do i often faking of something?

i wanna break this laziness
sleepiness
negativeness
stressness

auf wieder sehen,..

today story

i wake up late and again sleep after subuh. what kind of world would i face?
today i have to go to campus and have meeting in my student org this afternoon.
still, several task didnt finish yet. i have to catch up these task today. before 2.30 pm i have to be in campus unless lessen possiblilty my task will be acepted by my lecturer. The task are 2 papers assignment. well, my mom has already ask me to change. not to sleep so much, but then i still sleep this much.
more and more time i have waste
thouhg i know my time is coming closer and closer, i still pretending that i'll live on Earth for eternally,.. Astagfirullah,..


based on the facts i see from dially life is that i am not that gratefull to Allah SWT for many things He has given me many things from air to breath, room for shelter, brain to think, voice to speak, water for drink, age for collecting capital for the afterlife.

Somehow, i am too excited meeting awesome clever people yet i forget who create them. Sometime I see certain people too high yet I forget that Allah is The One who creates them!
silly
so, silly,..


yeah,..
changing is not only by metnioning it but also by actualitating it.
based on those all things,...
Leaf, I beg you to purpose (to change, to make a betterment, to be gratefuller to Allah, to count you time,not to see people exaggeratedly,)