My biggest Enemy

All the way of my life
i woke up this morning and sleep back
as if the sun doesn't shine

i let the curtain closed
i try to breath and give my heavy hiss
i close my eyes so tight, afraid of the fact
the fact that many things i have abandoned in my back

desparate crawling in my head
ask me to give up
turn back
be a coward


then want or not
the fact will say hi to me
appear as reality
my attempt to escape is useless

sun shine comes to my room
i am sick of this
of this procrastinating!
i am stuck

I hate!

this is the fact
my biggest enemy is not her, him, them

yes
my biggest enemy is my,..


my,..
self,..